thiruvAimozhi – 8.1 – dhEvimAr

AzhwAr thought “sarvESvaran, as explained in paryanka vidhyA, remained seated on thiruvanthAzhwAn (AdhiSEshan), along with his dear consorts, being served by his eternal associates in thiruvARanviLai, to hear thiruvAimozhi; let me go there, make him listen to thiruvAimozhi, engage in favourable acts and enjoy him”; but it remained a desire, and could not be fulfilled. AzhwAr became very upset thinking “even as his dear consorts are present near him, even as the nithyasUris are present, even as the opulence to fulfil any of his desires is present, even as he has the divine archA (deity) form for the sake of his devotees, and even as there is no shortage in my desire, I am not getting my desires fulfilled!” AzhwAr expects only two qualities from sarvESvaran:

• his being totally dependent on his devotees
• his aptness to consider the sorrows of all other entities as his own, due to all other entities being his prakAram (form, attribute) and his being the prakAri (underlying soul)

AzhwAr did not see that happen towards himself; AzhwAr started excessively doubting “is sarvESvaran going to lose these qualities, after my birth?” emperumAn thought “if AzhwAr who sustains with knowledge about my qualities, suspects my qualities, he will not sustain himself; we cannot lose him; let me think about a means to pacify him” and said to him “Come on! Why are you unnecessarily doubting everything? Have I not done anything for you? I who favoured you to this extent, will also do the remaining favours; please do not unnecessarily doubt like this” and pacifies AzhwAr by manifesting his auspicious qualities starting with his ability to infuse enthusiasm in others and the favours he did to AzhwAr; AzhwAr being pacified, meditates upon those qualities and becomes pleased.

[nampiLLai explains how sIthA pirAtti highlights her excessive doubt, in SrI rAmAyaNam sundhara kANdam 26.13]

• prAgya: – One who has great knowledge so that those who don’t have enough knowledge will not lose him, as he knows the ability of himself and the others.
• kruthagyaScha – One who knows to present himself so that the one who approaches him will give up hatred towards him and start facing him favourably.
• sAnukrOSScha – One who feels pity for the loss of those who don’t know how to approach him even after having sufficient knowledge.
• rAghava: – This is not just his quality; it is coming in his family heritage.
• sathvruththa: – One who fully exists for the nourishment of others.
• kyAtha: – In this manner, he is popular even in the enemy camp.
• niranukrOSaSSankE – Due to his non-arrival, I doubted perumAL (SrI rAma) who has all these auspicious qualities, to be a hard-hearted person who has none of these qualities. He will never be devoid of auspicious qualities.
• math bhAgya sankshayAth – This is only due to my lack of fortune.

AzhwAr too said “aRivonRum sangippan vinaiyEn” (I being sinful, doubt emperumAn’s qualities) [7th pAsuram]. ALavandhAr mercifully explains this SlOkam to be matching this decad.